Rambling on... again..

Life is full of these ... and yet we still seem to mourn the endings and get excited about the beginings! all the time... everytime... Is this what is the miracle called life? 2008 is on the verge of becoming the past... and 2009 is going to be the present and not the future anymore... So how was 2008? same as every other year i guess... some highs, some lows... some times of utter despair, some full of hope and new directions, and some broken promises, some moments full of life, and some times i wished i wasn't alive, festivities and celebrations on one hand, funerals and illnesses on the other, intimacy and passion was there, strangely so was distance and loneliness, some frustrating moments of silence, where the heart wanted to shout and scream, and some moments of emotional cacophony, when all i wanted was a dessert of silence, tender moments of pure unadulterated love which only a child can bring, Thankfully some moments of being one myself... so ya - all in all... a pretty no...

Taking a leap of faith… defines a lot of decisions in life doesn’t it? At some point – one needs to give up being guarded, being scared of getting hurt or just plain simple stop ‘floating’ along… But how does one really do it? Am I the only one who finds these things tough? In a recent personality test I had to undergo .. seeking control of the situations around me was the highest – and no it doesn’t mean I am a control freak – it means I look for structure in things around me. Logic is the mainstay of how I handle various situations, people and relationships... then how the hell does such a personality type take the leap!!??? leap = action means leaving status quo means change means new faith = belief means blind choice means letting go means just being action of just being? leaving status quo and letting go? new and blind choice? how? why? is it all worth it? can it ever be worth it? and yet if it wasnt so - so many millions wouldnt be taking the leap and even inspiring others to do ...

Maybe had just got spoilt with the lull on this front ... but when faced with an in-ur-face display of chauvinism happened, i was yet again caught by surprise! why do i keep getting surprised still after so many years, i dont know... maybe am just too slow in my head!! ;-) in my head - an educated, corporate professional who's been in existence in this current world scenario - when asked 'do your sisters work?' DOES NOT reply with an 'of course not!' in my head - the above described person DOES NOT insist on 'homely' (read : non-working) as a pre-requisite for his life-partner! in my head - the above described person is fictional!! :o) but no - with my luck - trust me to run into this person... and since i firmly believe that there's always a reason why anything happens in life... i shall aim to look for reasons here as well... 1. had to remember the lessons learnt in body language (limp handshake = limp mind and who knows limp what else!!) he he!! 2. h...

Early morning sun comes in streaming... A smile and a sigh together... The morning starts with optimism.. No other way would i have it rather! Warm skin next to me... Not just on the outside tho.. Safety, security and lots of love... All the time with me on-the-go! Confident strides taking me to work To Smiling faces and trusted colleagues Making work a pleasurable challenge Not at all a world of intrigues! Evenings full of anticipation Of what the night would bring, All around the home and hearth Laughter and only laughter will ring! :-)

Over the last 2 weeks (really thats all it took!!) have been going thru this.. one day, random friend request from a familiar sounding name turns up... check and voila.. its an old classmate from high school! who directed me towards a FB group for our school, where just 2-3 other classmates were there. and that just set off a chain reaction... now we're some 15 odd people and more joining in every day... and others who're not on the cyber networks but are in touch with a few.. How can it be that the simple event of getting in touch with friends of a different era can almost redefine whats the present status of life? The innocent friendships of those days are just such a far far cry from today's - where a whole lot of our 'friends' are driven by just the need to pass time or find someone to go the gym with or even as frivolous as have lunch with!! beyond the sheer excitement of tracking each others lives, will this lead up to actual revival of friendships? or startin...

Am getting more and more enthu about photography as a hobby... lets see where it goes and how long it lasts... but till then... here's a sample of my efforts over time..

The Invitation - by Oriah Mountain Dreamer It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to ...