Rambling on... again..

Isn't everyone's life incomplete without at least a few of these 'If Only's...'? :-) life would be absolutely stupidly boring if we didnt have those moments of reflection where we could go 'if only...' followed with a deep deep heartfelt sigh!! To me having these moments reassure me - tell me that am not just human, but also a person capable of learning from my past... If Only i had not given up easily on the first job offer i got.. just because my family didnt want me to stay away alone... If Only I had persisted and learnt singing the way i wanted to... just because i was too lazy to do the bus trips to mandi house... If only i had learnt swimming early enuf.. i wud have enjoyed australia that much more... If only i hadnt made an ego issue out of a simple fight with a friend... and instead gone back and apologized... If Only the guy i had a huge crush on - reciprocated my feelings... ;-) and so on and so forth... am sure its easy enuf to guess that the lis...

"A man is as good as he has to be, and a woman is as bad as she dares" Read this recently in a friend's blog... somehow seemed very very apt for what has been on my mind for some time and maybe just havent been able to put it down. Its been a phase of bouts of extreme concentration and complete distraction!! :-) Anyways... to get back to the topic at hand... the women's day this sunday left me feeling very nice... some random sms', some wishes... some FB updates... sometimes i wonder if we ever realize the impact our small actions can have on someone else... on the impression we carve out for ourselves in their minds and vice versa. a male colleague... someone i dont really think i've spent time with - on work or outside...except for some random short interactions... sends an sms with a simple msg 'women like u make your gender superior'... dont even know (or care) to how many others went the same sms... but it made me smile at the unexpectedness of it...

Aaj bahut dino ke baad Aayi unn lamho ki hai yaad Bholepan aur ummeed ka tha saath Aur sapne hote the aankhon mein Bahut dino mein laga mujhe Kisi apne ke saath ki Jaise ummeed ab bhi baaki hai Shayad kahin dil ke ek kone mein Ek aisa apna jo saathi hoga Subah ke saath shaamon mein Jo khushi ki wajah banega Mujh mein aur mere apno mein Kabhi kabhi darr lagta hai Kya pehchaan paoongi usse Bahut adla badli rehti hai Aapno mein aur begaano mein Khud pe yakeen hai ab tak Tabhi to yahan tak pahunchi hoon Varna bahut hi mushkil hoti shayad Ghabraye mann ko samjhane mein Kya sabke saath aisa hi hota hai Ki khud ka astitva adhura lagta hai Kisi aur ka sang kya zaroori hai Ek poora jeevan jee paane mein??