Main khud hi khud ki hamsafar...

Apni zameen main hoon khud
Aasmaan bhi main
Apni pyaas bhi main hi hoon
Uss pyaas ki raahat bhi main

Khud ki khushi to hoon hi
Apna hi hoon gam bhi
Rakshak main hi to hoon apni
Aur shayad apni hi bhakshak bhi

Bhanwar mein fassi bhi main hoon
Bachne ka sahara bhi
Iss safar ka aagaaz bhi main hoon
Aur safar ka anjaam bhi

Dhoop se tadpana bhi mujhe hai
Thandak ki chaaya bhi main
Raste ki thokar bhi main hoon
Sahara liye ek haath bhi main

Raat ka andhera hoon main
Chandani ki roshni bhi hoon
Savere ki thandak hoon main
Aur dhoop ki tadpan bhi hoon

Main hi manzil hoon khud apni
Main hi hoon apna safar bhi
Main hi karwaan iss safar ka
Uss karwaan mein main tanha bhi

Main hi khud ki hamsafar hoon
Hoon apni hi saheli bhi
Kab kaise main ban gayi
Khud apni hi parchhayi bhi…

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Reading is what saved me…

Its funny to say or hear this but its true. In my life, books happened very early on in life and I got totally hooked to the escape they offered. Given our financial constraints growing up, books were a cheap way to get those kicks in life. A nearby renting library with an endless supply of M&Bs and Georgette Heyer’s and other similar ‘fluffy’ fiction – made it all super easy. I devoured books from the school library, shamelessly borrowed (and returned) books from friends and neighbors and never shied away from being seen with a book at the every juncture. Its truly a wonder that i didn' t get glasses at that stage in life! Books saved me from the stress that financial constraints bring to a child’s mind. Books saved me from the boredom that brings on negative thinking. Books told me that having and expressing emotions were totally fine – I could shed copious tears while reading without any fear of judgement. I could laugh out loud at a smart and sassy scene. Instead they...

F$#@ Buddies

When I first heard this term – in all my naivety (yes it DOES apply to me at times!!) – I really thought it means its someone who’s a buddy and you also f@#$ them… seemed to make little sense to me at that time – simply because I thought that’s what I define as my perfect formula for a life partner!! Why coin a whole new term for something as basic as say a soul mate etc… Only later did I finally grow up to realize that there’s a whole new world out there in which terms like this make so much sense… and its not what I thought… Its someone who u f@#$ and can be sure to keep it a secret like a buddy!!! Or it’s a buddy - who when u’re down and out, you can ask for a f@#$ if you really need it!! Now why did this come to mind now… well simply becoz in a recent episode of ‘sex and the city’ – the girls are discussing this! And I was wondering about this kind of relationships – if they can be called that. Especially so in our culture here - where most people in my circle at least (or so i wud...

Starting Over...

In life, beginings and ends form such a crucial part of living - never have i realised it more than in the last month or so. Both personally and professionally - too many things are ending and too many new ones are beginning. Its very easy to get nostalgic about whats ended - easier still to forget that it was us who wanted that stage to end ourselves. All because somewhere or the other in our heart - we're scared of the next stage... scared of not being sure... maybe of not having the comfort of belonging - like how we did earlier. Leaving aside the personal changes - professionally, after working for 14 years non-stop, i quit. To the world - i've taken a 'break'. No plans, No hidden cards (yes i got told that by quite a few), No waiting-by-the-side offers... just needed to not feel fatigued in life and figured that it IS after all, MY OWN LIFE... so i can do what feels right to me... without guilt, or feeling irresponsible, or even just guilt of being lazy!! Its my go...

Rambling on... again..

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