Rambling on... again..

Life is full of these ... and yet we still seem to mourn the endings and get excited about the beginings! all the time... everytime... Is this what is the miracle called life? 2008 is on the verge of becoming the past... and 2009 is going to be the present and not the future anymore... So how was 2008? same as every other year i guess... some highs, some lows... some times of utter despair, some full of hope and new directions, and some broken promises, some moments full of life, and some times i wished i wasn't alive, festivities and celebrations on one hand, funerals and illnesses on the other, intimacy and passion was there, strangely so was distance and loneliness, some frustrating moments of silence, where the heart wanted to shout and scream, and some moments of emotional cacophony, when all i wanted was a dessert of silence, tender moments of pure unadulterated love which only a child can bring, Thankfully some moments of being one myself... so ya - all in all... a pretty no...

Taking a leap of faith… defines a lot of decisions in life doesn’t it? At some point – one needs to give up being guarded, being scared of getting hurt or just plain simple stop ‘floating’ along… But how does one really do it? Am I the only one who finds these things tough? In a recent personality test I had to undergo .. seeking control of the situations around me was the highest – and no it doesn’t mean I am a control freak – it means I look for structure in things around me. Logic is the mainstay of how I handle various situations, people and relationships... then how the hell does such a personality type take the leap!!??? leap = action means leaving status quo means change means new faith = belief means blind choice means letting go means just being action of just being? leaving status quo and letting go? new and blind choice? how? why? is it all worth it? can it ever be worth it? and yet if it wasnt so - so many millions wouldnt be taking the leap and even inspiring others to do ...