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Seeking closure...

Closures in relationships have kinda driven me crazy all my life!!! Either am trying to avoid them or running like crazy to achieve them… :-)

And reading a note a friend had written recently kind of brought afresh all the ones which have been maybe more memorable for me… a long term friend who stopped talking suddenly… a stranger who struck a chord literally in seconds over a random cup of coffee in a strange land…

But maybe the strangest of them all are those relations which show you a glimmer of potential – of becoming something much bigger than a casual friendship… and then without there being an explaination, just stay stuck in the same moment of time... or even worse fade away without any apparent reason. Makes me wonder if its deliberate or actually someone’s way of being…
Maybe had this happened just once – I would have put it down to a freak case. But for what its worth – in the recent times have encountered more than one such case - and honestly it really freaks me out!!

What would make someone not want to bring on the next stage in a relation? I don’t of course mean to say that every one u meet needs to become your be your best buddy – but isnt it normal instinct to see whether there is more meat to the friendship? doesnt it become automatic to expect more and more from the relation? and if it keeps getting fulfilled - then even a little more than before?? the only way for me to stop this process would be if there was a time when the expectation wasnt fulfilled... and hence things got stuck... na??

or am i the only joker who thinks like this??

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