My dearest darling Ruaan,
I have absolutely loved this year gone by with you! At 5,
you’ve become so much more aware of your surroundings and relationships –
conversations are becoming fun and serious both. I find myself looking forward
to spending time with you on my own to talk, watch movies or even just play.
Today (29th Aug) you sat on my lap and typed out
with your 1 little finger the below line - “I love u mama the most and papa too”
So let me get back to what I wanted to tell you… this year
there have been many many things on my mind on what all I wanted to write to
you. But I find myself preferring to talk to you directly – and trust me, even
though when you’re 18 you might think mom was a fool for thinking I understood
what she was saying – but currently, I absolutely adore your simplicity and
innocence in comprehending whatever crap I am throwing your way.
By the time you read these and understand, you would know
that we have a couple of heart babies in our family. Veda and Manu did came to
us through God’s specific will. And I loved how you and I arrived at the best
way to understand this – Right family, wrong tummy! I wish for you this
simplicity continues to define how life needs to be viewed.
You’ve moved to ‘Primary’ school now and studies have
started making a significant presence in your life. One of my constant areas of
concern is how to make you look at studies as a fun and exciting thing to do in
life. I know how much my propensity to study or at least absorb and understand
what I’m doing has helped me in crossing many many obstacles in life. The kind
of confidence you get when you actually understand something is unparalleled in
life. This is not about making money or following a career path only… its about
the inner confidence you carry.
So I really really wish you understand the importance of
studies soon. My love… it’ll make you into the best all rounder you can be.
Another interesting aspect of your growing up this year has
been the entire dynamic I’m observing in your friendships. You’re more
discerning and yet open, more demanding and yet giving… you’ve been able to
point out which friend is truly looking after your friendship, you’ve told me
when you felt ignored too. People and relationships supersede anything else we
experience in life. Once you start valuing them, you automatically become a
better person. Value them, cherish them, nurture them. And yet don’t let them
overwhelm you – you are Ruaan first and everything else later – be it a son,
brother, friend anything..
My love.. sometimes I wonder how I can even breathe without
you in my life… and then I tell myself that one day you will grow up and move
away into your own life and I will be a curious bystander only. But maybe we
will be always very very good friends for each other… even if we’re busy or
occupied… or have other priorities… we’ll live in each others’ hearts always!
All my love… always
Ma.
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