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Happy Happy Birthday Sweetheart!

Hi Ruaan,

This is the first year that i have actually started using your proper name with you - at times. It feels good. Just as it feels warm and cuddly in my heart to call you 'Cheeku', it feels proud and strong in my heart to call you 'Ruaan'.

As you turn 3, there's so much more to US now. I love the stories you make up and tell me. I especially love the morning hugs i get from you to wake me up. Your fav one these days is to offer me a hug where i lie on top of your ear - kaan ke upar waali huggie chahiye?

Our relationship has shifted a bit now from last year - where it was mainly about keeping you happy and safe. Now I worry if i am bringing you some good values. If i am able to show you what kind of a human being i would love for you to be. I am aware that soon enough, I will need to let you choose your own path in this world, but i hope by then i would have equipped you with the values to choose the one you want - well.

This morning when i started thinking of what all i wanted to write this time - coincidentally the radio started playing an all-time fav song of mine... when you grow up, if you ever need to remember your mom, use this song as the reference.

Jeevan ke din, chote sahi,
Hum bhi bade dil waale,
Kal ki humein fursat kahan
soche jo hum matwaale.

Bubbu, just remember to LIVE each day... Dont just EXIST.

Be there for anyone you call your family or friend, not just in times of emergencies, but through their small and big times. Through their sorrows and joys. It doesnt have to focus on you. If you can find your happiness in making these people smile and wipe away their tears, trust me Life will be truly beautiful for you!

Till then... Love you a little more every day... Sometimes I truly think my heart will burst with the love I feel for you. And i get tears in my eyes when you come and put your tiny soft hands on my cheeks and ask me - "Kissi Chahiye?" And then proceed to give me the sweetest of kisses - our lippy kissy.

Grow up kind and smart,
Ma

 

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